I seem to be suffering from a definite blogging slump at the moment. It isn’t that there isn’t plenty to write about; it’s more that I have a combination of lack of time to sit and type, and lack of confidence – I can’t quite bring myself to believe that anything I have to say is interesting enough to put out there for the internet to read!
I was listening to one of Richard Herring’s Leicester Square Theatre podcasts a couple of days ago, in which Charlie Higson said something along the lines of ‘when you are a writer, you absolutely have to have an attitude of total self belief and confidence’. That made me think about how I’ve been letting my blog languish a little, as total self belief has given way to doubt over the past few months.
I’ve been pondering NaBloPoMo (committing to a blog post per day for the month of November), but I know myself well enough that making a public commitment to do almost anything is a fairly sure way of setting myself up for failure. So I’m not going to do that.
I am, however, making a statement here and now that I do believe I have a writing voice worth listening to. That my blog doesn’t have to fit into an obvious genre or niche. That I choose to post about whatever is important to me, without holding myself back worrying about what anyone else will think*. From the entirely trivial right through to the deepest matters on my heart, this is my blog and I won’t be ashamed.
So as and when I find the time and have the inspiration, I’m going to stamp on the unconfidence demons and just write. For me. I have a feeling I’ll be a better blogger again once I stop trying to please the hypothetical critical readers living inside my head.
*Mostly, if I’m honest, I assume people are thinking ‘bloody hell, this is tedious…’